Old Feelings

y'all ever.... have like a bad falling out with some people in a fandom. And used to check in on them almost obsessively because they would try to slander you? And like its years later but that itch to go and try to find them again comes back?

Its frustrating to deal with. It feels like because im bored I want to latch onto Anger as something 'productive' to feel. In fact it probably is just that. I miss a lot of that one fandom, that one group. I don't know where any of them are anymore, not even the ones who were good and who I cared about. But the urge to find them and... well I say 'check in' but its essentially stalking. Even if I don't do anything beyond scroll their social media.

idk